Confusion...

Its funny how life continues moving no matter what your location. I moved back to my hometown after living on my own for 2 years and the confusion continues to build. I am trying so hard to make things work here and some days I feel resiliant and other days I feel shut down and defeated. I feel like there is something inside of me that is begging to be let out. There is a passion and love for my amazing God that no longer wants to be quenched. The big problem is I don't know how to release it. I can't figure out how to let it out. What to do? How do I take this overwhelming feeling and channel it into something that is stunning and glorious?